Closing Time....?

This week there almost was not a blog post.  Its a challenge for me to write one every week because I really don't know what to say.  But I realized that I needed to push myself out of my shell even just a little, as hard as it is for me.  I've always been shy, afraid of being a bother, and inclined to react to others, but its gotten worse over the years, rather than better, as I didn't have classes or work to pull me out among others.

I want to go out there, be noticed, but it seems that even when I do step outside of my usual boundries that my first instinct is to be invisible.  I really don't know how not to be, and it frustrates me.  I've run a business in SL for 5 years now, and even most of my friends don't know what I make; I suspect many don't know I have a business at all.  I know I'm rubbish at this social thing, and I know it affects my abilities in marketing, which I dislike anyway.

But, its time for me to go and try to step into the world, I think.  Time to try and break past the obstacles that keep me from my dreams; many I put there myself.  Or as Semisonic put it,

Closing time
Time for you to go out go out into the world.

Time for me to just -do- things, instead of fretting over whether or not it will work out.

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Sometimes, it takes some trial and error to find where you belong, no matter where you are.  And when friendships are involved it can and usually does get more complicated.  When I first came to SL, I was actively Roleplaying or RPing.  First one place, than another, until getting into running my first RP sim.  Technically, I wasn't supposed to run it OOCly.  Building is my strong suit, working with people, not so much.  I've never been good at shmoozing.  So it didn't last more than a month after opening, because the person who was going to handle all that stuff wasn't up to dealing with it.

After that, I looked a bit more, couldn't find a place that would allow my particular history and just threw myself into my shop, teaching and DJing, this year.  My business partner and one of my two best friends decided that instead of trying to continue with the radio station in The Secret World, that we'd try running a club in SL.  Meanwhile, there was a spate of posts where folks were losing their RP homes because of finances.  The two ideas; club and place for folks to continue to RP, combined into Tempus Fugit.  More importantly, it was designed so that you don't have to be an RPer.  So what if your some normal person ooc, while the neko next to you is from the far future, and the troll siting at the bar is from the past and sideways?  When the place is outside of time and space, anything really should be possible.

So what does this have to do with today's post?  A friend recently has been trying to get me to RP where she is an admin.  Okay, fine, I'll give it try.  But its hard for me to get integrated and I don't think I'll fit there.  I'll probably keep trying in my copious spare time (Ha!), but I'm not sure how well it will work.

Meanwhile, I've got the club to run.  This time the person who was suppose to handle all the schmoozing is really gone.  I've got to do it myself with remaining family.  And seriously?  If I need some place to roleplay?  I already have it; with elements of fantasy, sci fi, and things completely outside of time itself.

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Time ...

So, I have been very lax the last month.  First there was a trip, and maybe another trip, and I forgot to get back on the horse.  The 4th was Beth's rez day.  She turned 5, but there is an older account which is actually 10 years old and nearing 11.  So, that made me think of a song that I rather love, by a band I rather love.  From there it was to other songs about time, which makes a certain amount of sense since I own a night club called Tempus Fugit.

Tempus Fugit means Time Flies, and the motto, logically, is 'Time flies when you're having fun."  Now, this isn't a blog post about the club, not really.  I'm very happy with the rebuild, and the 25 of October, we'll have a new grand opening [we never did before, so... yeah].  This time there will be gifts; a clock, and a personal copy of our dance star that floats around you, slowly changing colours and throwing off matching light [which you can turn off and on with a command].

Instead, its about sorrow, and joy, and stubborn determination.  Its about how time flies, often leaving us to wonder where it went, and what we did while dragged along in its wake.  For Beth, its only been five years, but...

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.

[Pink Floyd - Time]

As for why I've practically become Super Deformed?  When I first started Beth, she became an RP character [initially she was a blog alt].  Then within a year, all the places she'd played were gone and I'd not found another.  Now, she's being played again.  Sometimes you just need to grab the RP when you can.

And if you do want some place mellow to come and hang out, or a place to come roleplay with others?  Tempus Fugit is open and ready, even if its not officially yet.